Experience in Public Market

Anyway, in relation to my religious experience plus chrono crusade.

During lunch this day, my groupmates (me, grainne, jc, grace, carla and chy) went to public market to interview a person working there. we were tasked by our philo teacher Mr. Epino. Anyway, it's been so long that i haven't been to the place. The place where messy and crowded. I was just shocked that the person we interviewed was very sincere on what she said. Mrs soriano experience God despite the hardships in life. It was because of some miraculous experience during the past. About the strange but miracle medicine she heard for her husband and so many things.

Anyway, passing by the market made me strange, the scent of that kind of market made me realize of the level gap of the people around me there. It was sad, it made me think that Why did God make me not like them. I don't want to feel sad about them, i want to be them. I want to be poor so that i won't suffer the feeling of sympathy. This is a strange world. And Im spending a lifetime of thinking about this world.

How can I possibly say "yes" to God. I feel like i'm not God's favorite but im lucky in my life.

This is weird. I feel like im a saint. or not, i want to be someone like Jesus. But Jesus in this Century is like impossible right?